BEDA fail and 30-year-old me

I fail at BEDA...my month has been more stressful than I thought and my endeavors have not been very blog worthy so I just sort of gave up. So, I'll give a brief update. Sinnce the last time I posted I've:

-Started, and finished, Firefly (I adore Kaylee <3)
-Finished rewatching the 5th season of Buffy
-Half way through my reread of Alaska (been failing on the reading front...)
-Dealt with my messed up and ultimately lost financial aid package for college
-Been trying desperately to get ahold of the dean to get stuff together for my thesis (he finally answered today, it took him over a month!)

So that's why I haven't been blogging, not very fun stuff (besides the first 3.)

BUT I am back today after watching both Charlie and Kayley's videos to their 30-year-old selves. I thought this might be fun so I've decided to make a blog post about this. So, to a 30-year-old Sarah hello and how are ya? :)

Dear 30-year-old me,

Right now, you're 11 days from turning 19! You love your birthday and I hope that doesn't change as you get older like it does for some. You're about to start your final year of undergrad and start applying for grad school. Now, I hope you're still a Ravenclaw and love school and learning, but I also want you to be done with school by now...I know now you are(I am?) debating about whether you want to stop at Masters or go on to your PhD or PsyD. I hope whatever decision you(I?) made ends up being the right choice for you/me.

Now hopefully you're bored with talking about that and want to get onto more fun topics! I really hope you still go to HP conferences and wrock concerts (if they are still around.) I also hope you still love to read and watch 5AG and vlogbrothers on YouTube because, right now, the HP fandom and Nerdfighteria and huge parts of your life. I also hope you still adore Buffy and take it as seriously as you do currently. Now, I know I just watched it and discovered it's beauty less than a year ago, but this series really changed your life and the way you think and approach the world.

On this topic, I hope you were able to make your thesis on Buffy work at some point through your educational career because I believe doing so would be something you'd be very proud of yourself for. Right now, you pride yourself, as well as struggle with, being a fan as well as an academic. It seems so clear to you but others don't seem to understand. I hope you remained true to yourself and did what you thought was right.

At this point, I'm guessing you're very focused on your career (hopefully still counselling in gender and sexual identity!) and probably aren't married or have a family. However, I do hope you have had, or currently had, at least one serious girlfriend by the time. You're very jaded and driven now which is not a good combination for creating a relationship but I want you t experience it at least once in you're life.

I hope you have tons of dogs. I hope however that you still remember Noah and how much you loved him. Right now he's 12 and he's your best friend and you can't imagine life without him. I hope you're able to love others dogs as deeply as you loved him but I don't know if you could...

I hope you still are as close with Ryan, Tara, and your sister. They're very important to you know and I hope they remain that way.

Most of all, Sarah, I hope you're happy. You love deeply and feel strongly and I very much hope you still are in essence the same as who you are now. I don't want you to grow up or chain unless you want to. Just recently you've begun to have confidence in yourself and I hope that remains. You've had some hard times but right now you're happy and I hope the same still holds true.

And on one last night, I hope you can still quote every season of Friends! It comes in handy (no it doesn't, but you enjoy doing it.)

Best Wishes,

The 18-year-old you

BEDA #4

I'm lazy, today's been a bad day, here's a short survey about my favorite things. Enjoy:

Color: Pastel pink, blue, and purple
Animal: Dogs
Book: Aside from HP, probably a tie between Alaska, Bermudez Triangle, and Huger Games trilogy
Drink: Water or coke
Band: MoM, ALL CAPS, and Moaning Myrtles
TV Show: Buffy and Friends
Holiday: My birthday
Website: currently nerdfightersecrets :)

Hopefully I'll be less irritated tomorrow...

BEDA #3

I almost forgot to blog today xD

So I was going to start my Infinitus write up but I ended up doing something better. I started rereading Alaska this afternoon and, while swooning with love for this book, I remembered that I gave my friend a copy for her birthday. So I texted and asked her to start and to my surprise she said okay and 30 minutes later was texting me about different parts she enjoyed. So I spent my day staying caught up with her.

I've never gotten any of my friend's to read any of John's books so her reading it and loving it to be quoting it on facebook and texting me every few minutes about different parts was awesome! I'm excited for her to finish it and be able to discuss it fully. It makes me happy. :)

Besides Alaska, I've spent the day dong laundry, watched Buffy, and hung out and watched stuff with my mom. So good day overall. Now time to go back to reading, I'll write more tomorrow.

BEDA #2

Today is a going to be a boring day in blogville because I'm being productive IRL. So today I decided to go with the spurt of productivity and make a list of all I want to finish before the end of summer. Then at the end of the month I'll go back and see how much of this list I actually completed. So here is my list:

-Finish rereading Alaska
-Finish rereading DH
-Write review of Infinitus
-Learn how to work my cd drive/DVD creater thing I bought for my laptop
-Finish my proposal for my thesis
-Go eat sushi :)
-Finish cleaning room
-Finish hanging things up in my room
-Finish season 2 of Buffy and take notes for my thesis
-Get on a better sleep schedule
-Hug my dogs a lot

This list many change a but right now this is all I want, and think I can, get done before the end of the month. Tomorrow I should be starting my Indinitus write-up :)

BEDAugust #1

HELLO WORLD! (not really..) I'm going to be participating in BEDA this year :D. I'm not too busy this August so hopefully I'll be able to make it every day.

I have some plans on what to write about in hopes that I can use this blog to get me to stop procrastinating. I generally like to write up everything I do at HP cons so I can remember everything later on. I've been doing this since Prophecy but unfortunately Azkatraz only got half done. I'm hoping to use the first week of BEDA to slowly write about Infinitus so it doesn't end up unfinished like Azkatraz.

Next, I plan on using my blog some days to write about my thesis. My thesis is on gender and sexual identity within Buffy and I'm starting it this fall. Right now my dean is being kind of stupid with helping me so I really need to get in the habit of helping myself. So someday I'm going to try and discuss some of my thoughts about the series or different academic books about the series so I'll have an easier time fall semester.

Lastly, and probably the only one other people will care to read, I'm going to review Mockingjay and what I thought about the end to the series. I'm very excited to get this book and I plan on finishing it before my birthday (August 27th.)

My blog is mainly for me which is why most of it sounds boring for others to read. But if anyone else is reading this, I'd be happy to take some time to write about other things that interest you or just write a little about who I am since most of you probably don't know me too well. Feel free to also leave a link to your blog so I can at least read it during BEDA (I'll try to make comments too.)